Watch Me Finally Lose It

Have you seen the new show on NBC "This Is Us"? Well I'm obsessed. I love every aspect of it. It's one of those shows that feels REAL. Real emotions.  I particularly identify with Kate's story line.  She's just turned 30 and is over weight and miserable and in the first episode, she utters the phrase "I'm going to lose the damn weight."

As soon as she said that line, it's like I was her. And she was me. I understood exactly how she felt. Kate suddenly became my best friend because we were struggling with the same issues - confidence, weight, self worth.  And I was inspired -- I wanted to lose the damn weight too.

But weight wasn't the only thing I wanted to lose.

I want to lose my unhealthy relationship with food.
I want to lose my emotional eating habits.
I want to lose my insecurities.
I want to lose my self-hatred.
I want to lose my lack of self discipline.
I want to lose the "I can't" song that is on repeat in my mind.

So this journey is about so much more than weight.  It's about losing all the negativity that has sprouted in my heart and mind.  It's about losing the bad and gaining all the good -- confidence, healthy relationships, discipline, faith in myself.  It's about feeling worthy of being myself.

So watch me finally lose it!