Today I was Brave

Today I was brave.  I faced the monster head on.  I got in front of a camera half naked in order to take my "before" pictures.  When I downloaded the images, I hid them in a folder 3 sub folders deep.  That way there was NO accidental viewing by friends on my computer. Although that makes no sense, because I'm going to share them here.  My sense of shame is all sorts of messed up right now.

Taken 10-3-2016

I don't like reality right now. I can't hide behind fabric in these. I don't like seeing them. I don't like sharing them. But here they are.  This is where I'm starting.

Please keep your negative comments to yourself -- this is taking so much bravery for me to share at all. I am fully aware of how overweight and unattractive I am. You sharing more negativity will not help me change, but will actually hinder any progress I make.