The deep drive to wander is strong right now. I need to explore. I need to travel. I need to escape.

Not because my life is bad. Far from it. My life is good. My life is balanced. My life has routine. I enjoy my job. I enjoy my hobbies. I enjoy my church. But I have never been satisfied with being stationary. I've flown wild and free, blowing like a leaf to and fro. In the height of instability in my life, I craved consistency. I craved to have roots. To be established. To have what I have now -- routine, comfort, security. But now that I have that, I find that my nomadic tendencies pulling at my heart strings. It's a deep beat that sounds from my marrow, an ancient rhythm that tells me I'm born to wander. I'm beginning to understand that my need for wandering/unpredictability/exploring this gorgeous world is a part of my identity. That I am happiest and most comfortable when I am outside, unplugged, breathing deep and appreciating what fills my eyes.

We have a mini trip coming up to the mountains, and I hope to get some quality trail and outdoor time. I hope that will satisfy the craving for a bit.

And I have another trip to the mountains planned this winter with friends. I hope that will further satisfy the craving and fulfill my need for connecting with strong women and being fed with positive relationships with girlfriends.

It's fun coming into ones own... Finding ones lines are not finite but blurry. Finding height and strength from confidence and comfort in ones identity. Wearing my own crown not out of superiority over others but rather acknowledging just how wonderfully unique and fabulous I am -- and loving other women so that they can find and wear their own crown. Because there are plenty of crowns for everyone.  Realizing that life is too short to get caught up in negativity and judgment and cliques -- that being kind to others is so much easier and more fulfilling. Kindness to another when they need it the most (not necessarily when they deserve it the most) is transformative and connective. One can be strong and tough while also being sweet and kind.

But mostly I can't wait to unplug and walk with nature. Walk with God.